Flesh and Blood

Holy-Eucharist-catholicism-133989_482_493This blog has been a saving grace for me over the last three weeks.  I’ve been confined to my home, mostly to my bed or couch because of a herniated disc in my lower back.  The pain is bad and it seems my left leg muscles are starting to atrophy a little bit from the encroached nerve and non-use.  (whine)

Blogging each day, committing to being part of  WordPress’  “post-a-day-2013” is therapeutic and an enjoyable way to pass the time. I’ve discovered wonderful Catholic blogs “out there”, as well as hope-filled sobriety ones. Funny how I have come to know many of you–your personalities, simply by reading your words every day.

Prior to this, I’d been a four or five times per week meeting maker in AA.  The meetings are key for me in helping me stay out of my own head, which eagerly waits for me to put my guard down so it can recommend a drink to ease my suffering.  So, this online world has become my temporary meeting spot..the place where I come to read the experience, strength and hope from others and share my own when appropriate.

Many thanks to these bloggers for keeping me on my 12-step toes: Bye Bye Beer, Message In A Bottle, Sober Catholic, Emotional Drinking, Running on Sober, Sober Boots, The Bubble Hour, The Miracle Is Around the Corner and many others…

And since nothing can replace actual flesh and blood, I am so grateful that my sponsor AF and her sponsor SZ brought a meeting to me, since I couldn’t make one in person.  They came to my house on Friday, drank tea with me, read from the Big Book and just talked Steps.  AF was coy to point out too that I could use this time to work on my 4th Step, which I am still procrastinating.  ha ha. Maybe I will work on it today?

I typically don’t ever have the desire to drink anymore. One of the benefits of being sober for a while (define: “for a while”) is the desire to drink pretty much disappears.  Therefore, I’ve spent the big chunk of my time in here reading not recovery but Catholic blogs.  Out in the “real world,” or at least in my real world, I don’t encounter people every day who explore their love of the faith.  So, it’s wonderful to hang out in here with you all, especially these: Biltrix, Conversion Diary, and all the blogs that branch out from Conversion Diary through Jennifer Fulwiler’s 7 Quick Takes Fridays.

But since again nothing here can replace flesh and blood, I am sad to be missing Mass, unable to receive the body and blood of Jesus.  I live a distance away from my parish so I hate to ask our pastor (who no doubt is busy tending to other more pressing matters) to bring the holy Eucharist to me; but maybe my Mom can bring me communion some time later this week.  She receives an email every time I post so she’ll be getting this request soon enough!  XOXO


14 thoughts on “Flesh and Blood

  1. Sorry you are feeling so bad. I have three herniated disc so I know what you are going through. Cannot have surgery right now, as my Mom is extremely ill and cannot be down that long. Your blog as well has uplifted me many times. It is funny through blogs how we can become a “family.” We do get to know one another, do we not? I did not make it to Mass either this weekend due to feeling bad, so do not feel like the lone ranger. Take care dear sister, and in my prayers. God Bless, SR

    • Thank you SR! So have you gotten an epidural shot for the pain? I’m having trouble getting referrals and such in order to get that done but I think it would help.

      • No, but when I had one in my neck I got one. They do help, but eventually just wear off and there you are again. I had surgery done on my neck, and I recommend that more then anything. I have never had one more painful moment there. Girl I have so much wrong with my back, it is a wonder I have one. I keep going though, as my Dad once told me, “You sit down, you die:>)” Somehow that stuck with me:>) God Bless, SR

  2. It pains me knowing that you are going through a lot of suffering. It is good that you find blogging a good outlet. My wish for you is that you have a fast and healthy recovery so that you will be able to enjoy life to the fullest again. I also hope that you not stop writing blogs because you write very wonderful pieces that gives hope and inspiration to people like me. Thank you for sharing this and may God bless you. 🙂

  3. One of the reasons most Religious communities have a daily Eucharist is because we’re doing it for all the people who can’t get to a Eucharist themselves. So you – and anyone else in a similar situation – are still present at a Eucharist, because of it being a Holy Mystery.

    I’m so glad they brought a meeting to you tho.

  4. Good reminder! And as you wish to be able to recieve the Eucharist, the rest of us should remember you and others whenever we have the opportunity. This, too, will bring the spiritual blessings of the Real Presence to all of the Body of Christ. 🙂 Hang in there. Here’s praying for your recovery.

  5. Sorry to hear about your herniated disc…ouch. It’s amazing that there is such a wonderful recovery community “out here”…I have found solace in these blogs and forums when I am unable to make face-to-face meetings, or to augment them. I know that I would get squirrely when I didn’t get to a meeting after some time (still do), but now I find that I get squirrely when I don’t read my sober friend’s blogs! (Thanks for the shout out too – very kind) It’s heartwarming to hear your sponsor and your grandsponsor came over…that is very cool. I was laughing at your picking up or projecting of your grandsponsor not nagging you about your 4th…ha ha. I do my best not to nag my guys about it…I don’t always win though! But it’s all out of love, of course. I don’t know anyone who didn’t slag a little on their inventory. I took a little too long with mine, looking back. But perhaps that is where I needed to be. We are all on our own journey…as long as we’re looking ahead.

    I hope you feel better soon. Your pain is our gain, as we get to read more of your lovely work 🙂


  6. I forgot to say thank-you for so kindly mentioning me above. THANK YOU!
    I hope your back is on the mend!
    Have a wonderful weekend, Christy

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