Nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo… I did it again. i have a pinched nerve from a herniated disk in my lower back. I can’t. no no no. please no. it’s been almost two weeks since it happened (during sex) and there is now referred pain down my leg into my calf. I can’t run and I shouldn’t play tennis but I’m in the playoffs with Andraya. We post-poned one match and played it Monday–we won. So, we’ll be playing again in a week. so until then i will rest my back and do the back exercises and use the tens unit. I’m so sad.

First of all I don’t want to get fat again and secondly, I am miserable not being able to run. I asked God to remove my vanity and so is He going to let me get all fat again? Why can’t He just force-teach me how to not care what people think and only care what He thinks. Why do I always have to learn the hard way.

Maybe I’m not making sense. I’m definitley PMSing and definitely should stop writing or I’ll bring myself down more. bah humbug