I love this little book: My Daily Bread. It’s by the Confraternity of the Precious Blood. By Anthony J Paone, S.J. in 1954. The Confraternity of the Precious Blood it says is located at 5300 Ft Hamilton Pkwy, Brooklyn NY 11219. This little maroon book is divided into “chapters” which are each approx. a page and a half long. I read one each day. This is my second time through the book. I absolutely love it. It’s Christ speaking to me.

My Child, unless you learn to control your feelings, you will always find it hard to obey me. Your feelings do not reason. They simply turn away from what is unpleasant, be it right or wrong. Feelings can be calmed to some degree by an intelligent outlook. Still, you will never have a more troublesome and dangerous enemy than your own unreasoning feelings and blind desires. By prayer and meditation you will acquire a grander outlook on life. You will see the unreasonableness and mean selfishness of your feelings and moods. I will show you the glorious goal which I have set for you. When you have grasped the higher purpose of your earthly life, you will acquire a holy contempt for what ever opposes that purpose. This heavenly knowledge and eternal goal will bring unity and order into your life. You will then find it easier to guide your lower nature according to My Will. At times you will have to use stubborn resistance and even violence against the unreasoning tendencies within you. Sometimes you need to disregard your likes and dislikes, and follow your better judgment. With my truth to guide you, and My sacraments to strencgthen you, you cannot fail in this daily combat for Heaven. “

This speaks to me directly. So often I let my feelings and moods guide me, determine my action, which is so opposite of what I’m supposed to do—and opposite of what will bring me real peace. As it says, my feelings and moods do not reason. My feelings and moods only try to convince me to turn away from something unpleasant. “Something unpleasant” may actually be helping some one else! “Something unpleasant” may actually be doing my 4th Step. “Something unpleasant” may be cleaning the house and taking care of the children and my husband! “Something unpleasant” may be anything I don’t “feel” like doing. So, if I, as it instructs, use “stubborn resistance” and even “violence” against these unreasoning feelings—and “use God’s truth to guide me and His sacraments to strengthen me, I will not fail in my daily combat for Heaven.”

And Heaven is peace. Peace and order and unity and love.

Today’s reading in my other prayer book: Magnificat, was about accepting God’s call. I know now that I have been called. Called by God. Not in some crazy loud way. Not called to go save the world or be this great, prophetic figure of my time. No, not this. But called to just accept the call. I’ve been called by God and I accept. What ever it is He wants me to do, be it just take good care of the ones around me or to help other alcoholics or to have another baby or to take care of my parents or to be a better daughter-in-law. I have been called. I don’t know for what?

I only have to answer the call with a quiet “yes.” Yes. Yes. I accept. God, please direct my thinking. As the third step prayer says,

“God, I offer myself to thee..to build with me and do with me as thou will it. Relieve me of the bondage of self, that I may better do Your will. Take away my difficulties, that victory over them may bare witness to those I would help, witness to your power, your love and your way of life. May I do Your will always. Amen.